Got news about another hopeful prospect...they didn't say no, just not yet. So I will wait some more. It isn't a rejection, but I am still in this holding pattern. The explanation the recruiter had was that they were focusing on another position. However, I also know things can change. The longer the position goes unfilled, the more likely funding can be cut or another person fills in the gap.
Staying hopeful is getting tough. It makes anything associated with job hunting more difficult. But I am working on filtering out the bad thoughts and focusing on the positive, visualizing what out life could be like and having that motivate me to do more.
Of course, that was easy to write. Practicing it is more difficult. And then I wonder what if we need health insurance?
It's the middle of the night and I think I just had a panic attack. I think so because I threw up, a lot. I'm not the delicate type, not ill and no one else here seems to be, no alcohol at dinner, just couldn't sleep so I thought I would work on a house project only to get progressively more nauseous until I was puking my dinner out. I do feel much better, though.
I am ready to accept almost anything, just to keep us afloat. At this point, I think I have applied for most everything I can from my
current plan and am waiting for more reqs to appear. Doing searches
amounts to looking under rocks. I need to spend my time more effectively.
I've got a volunteer/networking activity lined up and when I am feeling more chipper, I will work on getting more people to take time out of their busy schedule to speak to me about my job hunt "marketing plan."
But where I must set some time aside for everyday is for laying the groundwork for our business. I've got some ideas for our business. Now it's time for research and plan.
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