I haven't been able to attend to much job searching lately, what with some issues with a bleeding GI tract. When I'm not exhausted, I am in pain with a killer headache. My low point was on Saturday morning, when I nearly passed out in the shower because raising my hands above my head was so taxing. If I hadn't improved by that evening we were going to the ER. Fortunately, I have been improving steadily and will be seeing a doctor for a check-up on Wed.
Were it not for the sudden onset of this "illness" I would not be so scared. It's like my body has betrayed me. Usually I feel stomach pains with any sort of stress. This time, it seems like my body went straight from healthy and pain-free to bleeding ulcer without any sort of warning. It's almost as if there was a tear inside me that took a few days to heal up. I have no idea why and at this point prefer not to conjecture. I am hoping the doctor can provide more details. In my amateur assessment of my situation now, my body is working on making more blood cells and there's not much more I can do on that front outside of eat well and rest.
While I know there is some life lesson perspective to be gained here, I'm not sure what because if my condition was brought on by stress and I was working, then it probably would have never happened. If it was brought on by some dumb random happening, like a really strong sneeze, then I might have been in a more precarious position if I were traveling, than at home, when the severe weakness hit.
More time at home with the kids is not bad. We've been reading and watching the brilliant show, Aquabats! If you were to look at my lifestyle--eating, sleeping, hanging with the kids--it's fabulous. Now, if I could only walk upstairs without getting winded...
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